Another Day, Another Demon

Just a girl named Death.

Erin vs. Cab Drivers Case No. 6,081

letter below in response to  ”While I cannot specifically address Uber Baltimore, I can tell you that their model is to steal drivers from the taxicab pool. And typically the first ones they get are the drivers that were already thrown out of legitimate taxicab companies. And just try to complain to Uber about a bad ride and see how gracious and receptive they are.”
My Response:
I’m sorry you felt that this Uber response was a proper way to address this complaint, but I’m not surprised and just gives another peak into the issue with cab companies. Since being back to Baltimore for the last 2 years and deciding to continue my NY lifestyle and not having a car I have used cabs quite a bit. I used exclusively cabs when I first moved here even though I had many issues with cabs in NY including being held against my will and almost assaulted by a driver. But I know that driver did not represent all drivers and I also did have issues with Uber’s business model. Since the 1st year of using cabs in Baltimore has been a stressful, absurd, and out of control experience. From drivers at BWI freaking out and refusing to drive me because my fare was only $20, have a driver keep the doors locked while he kept asking me why I wouldn’t go on a date with him, almost every ride having to argue about directions, getting asked inappropriate questions, payment, and whatever else seems to be bugging my driver at the moment. 
I wish this was an exaggeration on my part, but riding in a cab as a woman has not been a pleasant or seemingly safe experience and I had tried to give Baltimore cabs the benefit of the doubt and had less issues with yours than most. But I have found none of these issues yet at Uber which means I haven’t had to deal with their customer service yet so I’m not sure how they deal with complaints as I haven’t had any. After half a year of taking about 20 Uber/Lyft rides and about 10 cab rides I have had 0 issues with an Uber cars and several with taxis. So I don’t know what to say if Uber has the worst drivers then they are doing something right to keep them acting professional and making me feel safe. Which needless to say your driver screaming at me about me giving directions (for a place 1/2 miles away) the exact way he wanted which I had not been made aware of, speeding backwards down a one way alley, scolding me treating me like an idiot the whole way, trying to rip me off when running my card. All this at 3am, after hearing gunshots, after all the issues I’ve had with cabs and I still tried to use your company and not Uber
So please like your drivers don’t lecture me like I don’t understand how things work like I’m just some silly girl who just doesn’t know how the real world works. I fully grasp their model and I”m sorry but maybe if cab companies made more of an effort to make sure their drivers were being professional, courteous, knowledgeable of manners, payments, directions, and such silly things that are apparently included in Uber’s terrible business model maybe people would care more about how Uber runs their company. As of now all I know is they treat me how I expect to be treated and get me to where I’m going in a safe and courteous manner which is all I ask for. 

Netflix Instant Documentaries available list…

I looked at my Netflix queue to see all horror & docs. I feel right now Docs is Instant’s strongest category, but not well organized. Here’s an easy to read alphabetical list of ones I enjoy. Nerd stuff.

30 for 30 series
5 Broken Cameras
A Liar’s Autobiography
A Man Named Pearl
A Technicolor Dream
Adventure in Plymptoons
After Innocence
Ai Weiwei: Never Sorry
American: The Bill Hicks Story
An Inconvenient Truth
An Unreasonbale Man
And Everything is Going Fine
Anvil: The Story of Anvil
Baker Boys: Inside the Surge
Bastards of the Party
Beautiful Losers
Beauty is Embarrassing
Being Elmo: A Puppeteer’s Journey
Bela Fleck: Throw Down Your Heart
Bill Cunningham New York
Black White + Gray
Blank City 
Bombay Beach
Bones Brigade
Boogie Man: The Lee Atwater
Bright Leaves
Brooklyn Castle
Brother’s Keeper
Burma VJ
Card Subject to Change
Cave of Forgotten Dreams
Chariots of the Gods
Conan O’Brien Can’t Stop
Confessions of a Superhero
Dark Days
Deep Water
Delta Boys
Dr. Bronner’s Magic Soapbox
Dr. James Orbinski’s Humanitarian Dilemma
Edia & Thea: A Very Long Engagement
Encounters at the End of the World
Even the Rain
Exit Through the Gift Shop
Fall From Grace
Fat, Sick, & Nearly Dead
First Position
Fish Out of Water
Future by Design
General Orders No. 9
George Harrison: Living in the Material World
Ginger Baker in Africa
Girl 27
Graham Chapman: Anatomy of a Liar
Gregory Crewdson: Brief Encounters
Grizzly Man
Heroin Town
Hey, Boo: Harper Lee & To Kill a Mockingbird
Hit So Hard
Hitman Hart: Wrestling with Shadows
Hoop Dreams
How to Grow a Band
How to LIve Forever
How to Survive a Plague
I Like Killing Flies
I Need That Record
Inside Deep Throat
Into the Abyss
Jane’s Journey
Just Like Being There
Ken Burns: The Civil War
Ken Burns: The War
Ken Burns: The West
Ladies and Gentlemen Mr. Leonard Cohen
Last Days Here
Life in a Day
Lipstick and Dynamite
London in the Raw
Lost in La Mancha
Machete Maidens Unleashed
Magic Trip
Man on Wire
Miss Navajo
Motorheard: Ace of Spades
Mugabe and the White African
Mutantes: Punk Porn Feminism
Nostalgia for the Light
One Bright Shining Moment
One Nation Under God
Only the Strong Survive
Orgasm Inc.
Our City Dreams
Page One: Inside the New York Times
Paris Burning
Phil Ochs: There But for Fortune
Photographic Memory
Planet of Snail
Primitive London
Prisoner of Paradise
Queen of the Sun
Queen of Versailles
Revolution OS
Semper Fi: Always Faithful
Shut Up Little Man!
Something From Nothing: The Art of Rap
Sons of the Clouds: The Last Colony
Soulja Boy: The Movie
Speaking Freely: Chalmers Johnson
Speaking Freely: Hugo Chavez
Speaking Freely: John Perkins
Speaking Freely: Ray McGovern
Speaking Freely: Susan George
Special When Lit: A Pinball Documentary
Steal a Pencil for Me
Stephen Fry in America
Surviving Progress
The American Scream
The Antic’s Roadshow
The Art of the Steal
The Beat Hotel
The Black Power Mixtape
The Captains
The Devil Came on Horseback
The Endless Summer
The Future We Will Create
The Gates
The God Who Wasn’t There
The House I Live In
The Imposter
The Interrupters
The Invisible War
The Life & Music of Ronnie Lane
The Listening Project
The Lottery
The Man Nobody Knew
The Mexican Suitcase
The Pit
The Rite of Exorcism
The Sound of Insects
The Thin Blue Line
The Topp Twins: Untouchable Girls
The Trials of Henry Kissinger
The Weird World of Blowfly
The Wild and Wonderful Whites of West Virginia
The Woodmans
The Yes Men Fix the World
These Amazing Shadows
These Amazing Shadows
This Film is Not Yet Rated
Thunder Soul
Venus Boyz
Vernon, Florida
Waiting for Superman
Walk Away Renee
Waste Land
What’s the Matter with Kansas
Whore’s Glory
You’re Gonna Miss Me

He’s doing Return to Nuke’Em High, yes. Ha so absurdly amazing. 


No FOMO. At least I got one absurd day in before I got sick. Well technically 2 if you count Wednesday. But crazy Time Warp nights are starting to blend together on this side of the Mason Dixon. I am finding my groove here and it’s bothering me. It’s like dating the fun guy. You know it’s going nowhere, but it’s nice to fill the time and be able to have a tickle fight and argue about flowy shirts unbuttoned to the navel. But in the end you long for more. But you start to think this isn’t so bad, why can’t I just be happy with this. Fuck if I know. Did that have a point? I think the dehydration is setting in from puking for 20hrs. I’m going to get to the bottom of the Sheepsquatch and read way more of this Canadian Rock Wikipedia page than I should.

I think John Prine lyrics are the equivalent of the “I could of done that”. They are so simple, almost nursery rhymish when just glanced at on paper. But as they bounce around in your head they are just woven together with such skill. I still think about Elvis Costello interviewing him when I went to Spectacle. Elvis, disects everything and is over schooled in the art of music. He’s a super fan, I get it, we are all a super fans to someone. Most of us don’t get to interview our obsessions though on the Apollo stage. I know Elvis gets it on some visceral level, but he missed it on such a beautiful and obvious level. It felt like John Prine just trying to find the right way to tell this super fan “I just write what I feel”. I feel like my whole life is just me doing this song and dance out in the world (as I’m sure everyone else in the world is doing, we all feel beleagured!). I just think I might be a little to heart on my sleeve for this world. I wrote my first full song in a long time waking up out of a dead sleep this morning. I feel ready to try my hand at weaving lyrics probably not as well as Mr. Prine, but as I’m learning probably a little to late in life, that shouldn’t keep me from trying. 

Long Monday - John Prine

You and me 
Sittin’ in the back my memory 
Like a honey bee 
Buzzin’ ‘round a glass of sweet Chablis 
Radio’s on 
Windows rolled up 
And my mind’s rolled down 
Headlights shining 
Like silver moons 
Rollin’ on the ground 

We made love 
In everyway love can be made 
And we made time 
Look like time 
Could never fade 
Friday Night 
We both made the guitar hum 
Saturday made Sunday feel 
Like it would never come 

Gonna be a long Monday 
Sittin’ all alone on a mountain 
By a river that has no end 
Gonna be a long Monday 
Stuck like the tick of a clock 
That’s come unwound - again 

Soul to soul 
Heart to heart 
And cheek to cheek 
Come on baby 
Give me a kiss 
That’ll last all week 

The thought of you leavin’ again 
Brings me down 
The promise of 
Your sweet love 
Brings me around 

It’s gonna be a long Monday 
Sittin’ all alone on a mountain 
By a river that has no end 
It’s gonna be a long Monday 
Stuck like the tick of a clock 
That’s come unwound - again 
And again

Projecting Souls Should Not, NOT Be My Thing..

Hey Erin what’s it like dating sociopaths you ask. Funny you ask, shitty. Yup that’s the answer to that. You can’t project and give people depth apparently but you sure can fool yourself amazingly into believing it’s there. New Lesson: It’s not, don’t. 

Low Key for a High Note Gal

Gifts given by me this year - Took dad to Handel’s Messiah

Gifts given to me this year - robe, a few nerd games, scarf

What I really got was an actual happy big family Christmas filled with no questions about the direction of my life or tattoos. Told I looked nice, my job sounded awesome, and how witty I was. A few crazy murder intrigue stories and a small loud child’s head getting stuck in the railing. Generally it’s was just good to feel like you’ve finally grown up to the point where you appreciate those around you. I was probably a little late to the game, but better than to never show up at all. I could offer real advice though most of it taken from Dragnet episodes and be a shoulder to lean on. To grow into ones skin comfortably is an experience I never thought I would have. So pretty much as perfect and ideal as I expect a family based holiday in a weird atheist house to be. I am very fortunate to have such wonderful people around

me. Dragnet Christmas

boo fucking hoo

I will not be losing the life I know ever again. I’m also into whatever this globular piece of crap is.

Bad News Lesbians

My mom’s ideas amaze me sometimes. I was excited to hang out with this group of smart, very nerdy, very similar to me, mostly lesbian group of ladies I met. I was telling my mom just throwing that into the story not thinking it would be noticed or get a reaction. My mom is like Erin, you know I’ve heard you talk about your want for a significant other I don’t think this will help you. Well one wanting a cool dude to share my life with is a “want” not a goal in life. 1. I’m not actively or working towards this and if I was it would be a pretty fucking depressing pool I’m looking at. 2. I don’t think hetero men run from lesbians perhaps they even partake in these cool activities with us. Especially the very as close to not hetero as a straight man can get men that I date. My mom has really seemed concerned about this and keeps bringing it up. It needs to stop, like yesterday. Having my parents in my dating/sex life is beyond annoying. I thought oversharing would work in stopping this, but my mom is started to become use to it!!! WTF. I have no ideas on how to fix this. Dear Prudence??

Drake and I will get through this year!

(Source: celebraterickysargulesh, via mylestanzer)